Kamis, 25 Oktober 2012

Today Dream

Hoaamm..
I get up early morning now, 06.13,, kyaaa!! (just kidding,  it gets too oversleep get up in indonesia)


After pray subuh, i dream..
I am a simple and cool girl. i go home at night at 08.00 pm after course, riding a motorcycle.. alone.. at the quiet way..
i stop when the color of the traffic light turn red, i wait alone at the dark night with and few stars untill the other motor stop beside me..
A boy with blue hoddie, he is my course mate but we did not know each other..
he staring at me weird, when he know i read book on my motorcycle, strangely intrigued him down from the motor to see what I'm reading on. The traffic light turn green and he's gone.

I mma simple and cool girl. A boy who look at me interested to know me more, i know it, i feel it.
he like the way i talk, the way i dress, simple and cool (more than it i think) he follow me wherever i go. He greeted me, but I do ignore the way I usually do. he follow me untill my house, he imitate me.. i know he's cool,but in the real act, imma simple and cool girl.



I mma simple and cool girl. Other boy.. with the second boy, was in front of my house with their motorcycle.
I guess they want to meet me, but no! Different girl who sell newspaper and magazine, yeah that girl whom they search, that girl whom they wait for.

I am a simple and cool girl. coz, i'm just another girl....






good night,




Senin, 22 Oktober 2012

I Made A New Profile

As you know that i have a random Bio at some of my account that spread like trash to the maya world,. and start from this second i will make an official biodata,..
i write in this blog because i think its my ( online ) diary ,, so, this is my new bio which i'll upgrade to all of my account untill next month :

This is me, ik. Weird, silly, dream catcher, childish, and not-really-clever girl.
choc junkie and candy greedy eater. Internet Addict who loves fashion, photography and art. A dysmorphophobia girl. Loves rainbow, and rain at morning early.
 
except on my account with limited character like twitter
and may be some additional description :)

Sabtu, 20 Oktober 2012

Hello mask, goodbye little heart

Well, udah lama nih gue ga ngeblog..
Lagi banyak project dirumah gue, hehe..
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Anyway, project baru gue yaitu mau bikin blog lagi :| umm.. gue ga bakal ninggalin blog ini kok,
ini kan blog pertama gue, diary online gue, tempat gue curcol dari tahun 2010.. blog dimana gue lagi bego begonya ngasuh ni blog.. gue sayang sama blog ini, pertama kali bikin langsung nyari tema rainbow kasih kasih widget sebanyak mungkin dan sebagus mungkin (menurut gue).

Sebenernya ga cuma itu aja sih projectnya, masih ada lagi *banyak*,..
gue punya target:
- Gue bakal jadi Dokter sarjana S2 lulusan Universitas Airlangga, buat ngelanjutin cita-cita ayah gue dan nerusin usaha ayah gue
- Setelah gue lulus dari Univeritas Airlangga dengan IP tinggi, gue dapet beasiswa S3 di Universitas Oxford London
- Ga cuma jadi dokter aja, gue bakal nerusin hobi gue: menggambar, edit foto, fotografi, modelling (self), fashion, blogging craft, and all 'bout art and ICT
- Kalo bisa gue mau kuliah di 2 tempat sekaligus, Unair dan ITS
- Gue mau nulis Novel dalam waktu dekat ini, belum tau judulnya sih tapi menurut adek gue ceritanya bagus :) dan rencananya bakal gue terbitin biar temen temen gue bisa baca.
- Gue mulai nabung loh, biar bisa beli kamera
- Gue bakal lebih sering ngaji, dan ga telat sholat, bangun lebih awal dan belajar agama islam lebih mendalam
- Yang terakhir yang gue pengenin (gue mesen dan berdoa sama Allah) adalah "gue mau, lebih baik gue yang meninggal duluan dari pada gue harus ngeliat orang tua gue gak ada, dan gue mau gue meninggal setelah semua yang gue inginin terkabul terutama ngebahagiain ayah dan mama"

Guys, kalo kalian baca tulisan ini, gue sangat minta tolong banget kalian doain gue semoga target hidup gue tercapai :')
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Hello mask, goodbye little heart
Judul ini ngingetin sama karyaku "Secuil Hati":

Apa yang aku alami, semuanya berhubungan. Tontonan yang baru aku lihat, cerpen yang aku baca dan mimpi yang baru lewat.
Semenjak dia, entah kapan.. Hatiku mulai terasa sakit, semakin hari semakin menderita, rasanya perih udah gitu pedih banget. Beberapa waktu kemudian, dia sekarat. Dia, Hatiku. Namun karena tak ada cara untuk menolongnya, ia pun mati.
Kini, aku tak dapat lagi tersenyum bahagia, tawa karena kelucuannya, menangis terharu, marah, dan semua perasaan yang pernah ada di Hati. Karena itu semua jangan tanya kenapa aku bersikap dingin dan tak memiliki ekspresi, dan karena itu semua karena hatiku sudah mati.
 
 
Hello mask,
Aku butuh wajah baru,
Semacam... Poker face.
Bagaimana kalau Azmac Raifawh dan 29 wajahnya, keren kan?
Kenapa?
Karena hidup ini penuh topeng
Bagaimana denganku, apa aku juga akan memiliki 29 wajah?
Dengar, kamu adalah kamu, dan aku akan dengan topeng topengku itu

Goodbye little heart,
Lalu, hati kecil kita?
masihkah kau percaya pada hati kecilmu?
Sungguh.. 15 tahun aku percaya pada hati kecilku
lalu?
baru kali ini aku tau kalau hati kecilku, sudah tak jujur lagi
kenapa?
ta ingatkah kau pada apa yang kau tulis pada secuil hati?
ya, tentu aku ingat, sang hati telah mati.
hati itu bagaikan ibu bagi hati kecil..
kalau ibu itu sudah tak ada, bayangkan bagaimana nasib hati kecil
ya, dia akan berbohong,..

Hello mask, goodbye little heart,
Selamat datang wajah baru, selamat tinggal hati yang membusuk..
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Hati itu menjerumuskan ku, mereka jahat, mereka semua munafik,
sekarang tak ada satupun di dunia ini benar, semua serba salah, dan aku tau itu..
semuanya adalah kebohongan, tak satupun.. tak satupun, sekalipun itu adalah cermin.

Senin, 08 Oktober 2012

Inspiration Persons (Azmac Raifawh Opinion)


They are persons that inspired me..
they are inspired my life..
i must be thank full of them..
they are:

✿My mother.. she always give me an infinite love than her self, she always  scolding me when i take bad act, and she never ignore my story.. i ❤ my mom very much altough she hate me, even more :')

✿My father, i ❤ too, he is funny.. he ever put me on his shoulder when i was child XD i miss that moment.. yeah, i miss that moment

✿Ms. Tutik,, she is my teacher when i am 5th grade, she's so firmly and wisely, she taught us until we really understand

Mr.Hendratno, Mr.Chairul, Ms.Sundari and Ms.Khusnul they are my teacher at junior high school they are very inspirated me as much as i say it :D

✿Mr. Hendratno teach ICT, he have a remained comitment and i like the way he speaks
✿Mr. Chairul teach art, he says to me exclusively 'draw infinite, and dont be afraid to take a mistake'  that is my stance that i always hold
✿Ms. Sundari teach Indonesian language, altough she used to scold us, but i know one thing that she just want her student succes :)
✿Ms. Khusnul, she's nice teacher, very kind for me

Now.. im on Senior High School grade XI Science :*
these are my inspiration persons:

✿Mr. Totok / Pak Agus :D, He make me love physics. he always say once and wont to repeat again when he teach us, because who need the class are we, not him (i often get remedial of this subject :| #facepalm)

✿Mr.Syaiful, he teach art too, same with Mr.chairul, he so nice and give us a trick to make a circle, thanks for the art contest that he  recommended for me (i'm the 4th winner #facepalm again)


✿Mr. Om Pak Ong and Mas Andre, wkwkwk they are my trainers and my coach

 they never running out of conversation


Thanks for you too, who read my post :)